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Oct...let's say 22ndish| this thread will get NSFW you've been warned

[charmpagne]

[For the last week, their life had been confined to a small, immobile magic house that they're honestly lucky to have to begin with. Had Pure Vanilla not asked Mana for the hut when he did, they and quite a few others would have been completely homeless. It's not an ideal setup even slightly, but it's manageable...and Sparkling is thankful for it, make no mistake. He'd glad that not only do the Cookies have somewhere safe to ride out this disaster, but Beat and his household as well.

But it's difficult. The living space is cramped, tensions are simmering, and both food and water are scarce. Sparkling hasn't been far from Clotted Cream's side since they'd escaped the pier, but even then he has to go out searching for supplies at nighttime when able. Staying put just is not tenable, especially for him when he has to be drinking blood daily. Even if he just leaves for a few hours at a time...

Tonight, though, Sparkling decides to invite Clotted Cream along with him. Logically, having him stay at the hut would be ideal- safer- but he's known him long enough now to be able to tell that the other is not doing terribly well, and it isn't just from the lack of fresh water. Getting out from under the others for even just a few hours would do him some good, which is why he's walking arm-in-arm with the Mer down one of Bavan's many wrecked streets.

It's eerie. It's very quiet in the city with little signs of life, because what humans and monsters haven't evacuated are holed up in the Mall or other safehouses, trying to keep others out as they hoard their meager supplies. To that end, it means that all of the stores along the strip have been completely looted, but there's still a chance things could be missed. They have to look, just in case.

Sparkling comes to a stop at a corner where it's uncomfortably dark, the lack of electricity meaning that the streets have no lights to see by. It makes going inside even less appealing, but they have no choice. It wouldn't do now to come back empty handed, which is why he gently urges Clotted Cream with him towards the store, all of its windows broken out.]

This way. There might be something left behind here.

[clottedcream]

[Sparkling is right, honestly. While fresh and safe water has been rough to come by, between bottled water and falling rain, he's at least surviving. Avoiding drying out on land, and all that. But really, when your body craves the sea, desperately wants to swim in it to the point that it feels less an urge and more of a necessity and you can't, it leaves an uncomfortable void in its wake. One that only grows deeper by the day, and it's putting him on edge, making him very subtly irritable when normally he's anything but.

It makes sense that Sparkling would notice it. It's a very vague thing, but is still evident in the way that he tenses at the slightest loud noise, how he seems a bit more inclined to tap his foot in the air when he sits with one knee over the other, fingers splayed across his lips and a furrow in his brow like he's in deep thought.

When you normally have the sea as your back yard, to swim in whenever you please in peace and solitude, losing it is difficult. Even more so when it's been the go-to place when things get stressful.

Going out tonight is a godsend. It will help him work off a bit of that stagnant energy, and hopefully be productive in the process. Yet another of the things he lost when everything came quite literally crashing down: there's only so much work to keep his mind preoccupied.

Clotted Cream follows Sparkling's lead on this one. Sticking to the shadows is a safe bet, and staying close is even better. Bavan looks... nothing like it once did, and it's surprising how quickly everything around them just went downhill. Like nature itself has had enough, and is taking everything back. Add in the broken storefront windows and how silent and dark everything is, and it's uncomfortably eerie.

But supplies must be found. They have no other choice.]

Keep your ears open. Your senses are better than mine.

[But he's small, relatively, and he's quick. Making it to the store is the easy part. Judging whether or not anyone is in there is the real challenge.

There's a piece of steel rebar in his free hand. He grips it tightly, ready to swing if he has to. He's no fighter, not like this, but desperate times call for desperate measures.]

[charmpagne]

[With how much wildlife has overtaken Bavan in such a short amount of time, it's quite literally becoming an urban jungle. It isn't just destruction they have meeting them, but these awful vines twisting up and around everything, mushrooms coming from god knows where, and of course all of the sinkholes and gaps in the concrete caused by recent earthquakes. In fact, they felt a small tremor on the way here, so there's a chance it could worsen if they stay too long. Yet, Sparkling feels no real urgency to get back just yet. He wants to stay with Clotted Cream for a little longer.

Just Clotted Cream. Nearly losing him twice in one week has left him rattled.

Into the store they go, and they're met almost immediately with disappointment. Not only have the shelves been picked clean, but a lot of them have been knocked over into the aisles. What cans and bottles remain are broken or already opened, and even in desperate times Sparkling isn't sure they can trust eating something potentially expired. He tries not to let the negativity set in though as he methodically goes through what they find piece by piece, turning cans over just in case he misjudged them at a glance.

But it's slow. His arm is still broken, trussed to his body in a makeshift sling, and his free hand he mostly keeps held tight to Clotted Cream's, as if he's afraid the Mer may simply vanish if he lets him go. As they make it towards the back of the store, Sparkling comes to a stop, closing his eyes for a moment.]

...nothing here, either. Maybe...we should take a break.

[clottedcream]

[... nothing. Absolutely nothing. While that's good in one sense - no humans or other monsters to contend with - it's demoralizing in another. So far, they've got nothing to show for the time they've spent tonight. Nothing but once perfectly good cans, spilled across the floor.

His hand squeezes tightly around the rebar, but the rest of him remains just as lax as ever in Sparkling's touch.]

... if you need a break, please, let me keep watch.

[Sparkling is injured, after all. Maybe there's a bit of displaced and undeserved anger at the Naphil that guards the hut during the day for not healing Sparkling's injury, even though he knows realistically that such a thing doesn't come without consequences, but there's so much for him to be angry about right now, and that's just a convenient target. It's innocent if it isn't acted upon, right?]

[charmpagne]

[Oh. He...wasn't expecting him to offer that. Not to say it isn't appreciated, but...Sparkling lets his eyes scan the the rest of the store, ransacked and disheveled as it is. Clotted Cream being on edge has not gone under Sparkling's radar, but he seems to be especially touchy today compared to what he's been used to. It's a touch worrying...and also, he has to admit to himself that he really doesn't want to be alone right now. He had Clotted Cream come with him for a reason, after all, and half that reason was privacy.]

Clotted Cream...

[It's the first time he's said his full name in a while instead of truncating it with a nickname, his thumb brushing over the scales along the back of his hand.]

Actually, I...I was hoping you would sit with me. It's alright if you'd rather not, I just...

[clottedcream]

[... oh.

The use of his full name draws his attention, snapping him out of the slowly simmering frustration that he'd been stewing in for what feels like days now. It's like it drains away, slowly, but as it does his face feels oddly cool, and the brush of Sparkling's thumb over his scales makes him shiver.

Ah. He's letting everything get to him too much. He lets out a shaky sigh, lifting the back of the hand holding the rebar to press against his forehead.]

No, I-- My apologies. I'm... not taking this all as well as I'd like to have you believe.

[That's the easy way to say it. He turns, leaning in enough to let his forehead press gently against Sparkling's temple.]

I would be glad to sit with you. Please, do not think that I didn't want to before. I'm simply... restless, and frustrated for reasons that are no one's fault.

[charmpagne]

[The way Clotted Cream turns to him like that is encouraging, if nothing else. He hates to put him on the spot weirdly, especially since he knows none of them are doing well currently, it's just...he feels like communicating that is important right now, more than any other time. And as such, he returns the gesture in kind, bringing Clotted Cream's hand to his chest as he starts to look for a suitable place for the two of them to sit together. There's unfortunately not much, and it's likely they'll be having to sit on the floor somewhere...but as long as they remain someplace they can still see out of the windows, Sparkling thinks they'll be alright. It's secluded enough that no one should be able to sneak up on them, at any rate.]

You have nothing to apologize for. I would be shocked if you weren't feeling restless and frustrated right now.

[His voice is quiet as he leads them towards the back of the store, seeking out a spot on the ground that's clear of glass and other debris. In the end, he finds a happy medium in the form of the space behind what used to be an employee counter, giving them privacy while also a vantage point to the outside.

It...does not help the feeling that they're going through an apocalypse though, he thinks as he sinks to his knees with a barely constrained wince.]

I'm just worried about you, CC.

[clottedcream]

[It's Sparkling's wish to take a break, and so Clotted Cream is content to let the Vampire lead the way to where he'd like to sit down. Honestly, behind the counter is a safe bet. Easily hidden, but still a decent vantage point. He couldn't have chosen better.

As Sparkling sinks down to the floor, he follows suit. There's no sense in trying to keep his clothes clean at this point. He sits to Sparkling's uninjured side, tipping his head back against the counter shelves.

It's only here in the relative safety of their hiding spot that he feels comfortable enough to set down the rebar.]

I know. But I'll be alright. I've just been worried about you.

[Silence, just for a beat.]

I understand why your Naphil friend won't heal your broken arm, but if it were me, I wouldn't even hesitate.

[charmpagne]

Oh...

[CLOTTED CREAM...Sparkling almost laughs, but what comes out of him instead is a sort of good-natured huff once they're sitting on the floor together, Sparkling taking the initiative to lean as close into Clotted Cream's space as he dares.]

You're sweet, CC...but if it were you, I wouldn't have allowed it.

[Nor would he allow Josh to, either. He understands wanting to help to an extend, but taking his broken arm in a crisis like this isn't something he'll allow lightly. Still though, the sentiment is understood and appreciated, if the way Sparkling turns to kiss Clotted Cream on the cheek is any indication.]

I'll be okay. This isn't the worst I've been hurt.

[clottedcream]

[It isn't? --ah, but the scars. Clotted Cream frowns thoughtfully, lifting one hand up to push Sparkling's hair from his face. Clearly it isn't his first time in recovery, if these marks are any indication, but even so... he doesn't like that Sparkling has been injured at all, let alone this particular incident.]

I know. You're very strong. I'm sure that you've been through things that I cannot even imagine, considering the nature of this place. Even so, I... wish that it wouldn't happen to you at all.

[And that's what it is, really. Having the ability to remove the removable parts of the hurt. If he could, he would, even if Sparkling didn't want him to.

He feels his chest ache, and he leans in to close the distance, pressing a chaste but desperately firm kiss to Sparkling's lips. It only lasts a second, but when he pulls away, he remains close enough that his breath can ghost across the Vampire's skin.]

I... I love you. I just want you to be safe.

[charmpagne]

[In that moment, Sparkling felt compelled to say something reassuring to assure Clotted Cream that no matter what happens to him, he will be alright. Not because he's especially strong physically, or even strong willed...but because he has something to live for, and that is a motivator like no other.

Before he can think to, however, he's being kissed. It's chaste, yes, but the firmness suggests something far more beneath the surface. It is desperate like Clotted Cream feels it might be the last time they ever get to, and because of that Sparkling is ready to reciprocate in kind. It only lasts for a brief moment, but it's enough.

He swallows past the lump in his throat, lifting his good arm so that he can gently rest his two claws against Clotted Cream's cheek. He never knew if Clotted Cream heard his declaration of love to him when he was delirious from blood loss, and now it looks like it doesn't matter. The sentiment was always shared.]

I love you too. And as long as we stick together, I will be. I promise you, on my life.

[He curls closer to the Mer behind the counter, using the edge of his wing to pull him in against his chest, a sort of half-embrace with Sparkling's cheek resting against Clotted Cream's temple.]

It's...unfair. For the first time in such a long time, I get to feel this happy again...and it has to...to...

[clottedcream]

[Clotted Cream heard it, no doubt about that. But he'd been too out of it to respond in kind, and it had felt like a dream by the time he'd awakened from his drugged sleep. He could remember Sparkling's voice saying the words, but not if it had been real or not... so he'd bit his lip against saying as much then.

But not now. No more. Not when the world is crumbling all around them.

He allows Sparkling to pull him closer, settling in comfortably against the Vampire. If they were anywhere other than huddling behind the checkout counter of a general store, it would be bordering on romantic. Here, though, it's a necessary comfort. Reassurance. Security.]

We will be alright. What we have lost are material things. So long as we have each other, I won't let anything deny you that happiness.

[He turns his head, just a little, enough to press a soft, delicate kiss to Sparkling's throat.]

We've fought too hard to let this get the better of us now.

[charmpagne]

[There are times when Sparkling's instinct to breathe rears its head even though the need to do so is no longer a thing for him. This is undoubtedly one of those times, with the way he feels Clotted Cream's lips brush gently against his neck in a way that makes his skin prickle, a shiver rushing its way down his spine. His ears swivel forward with interest, though he feels a momentary coil of guilt in the pit of his stomach at his reaction.

This...this isn't the time, nor the place. He shouldn't be thinking that way, especially not when it's obvious that Clotted Cream's experience- compared to his own, anyway- is little to none. Sparkling has had these thoughts of making sure to take things nice and slow with the other, for each tender moment shared to be carefully planned so that he can show Clotted Cream just how fulfilling a relationship can be, not just emotionally.

...but thinking this way makes him realize that. They may not have the time, not anymore. There is a very real possibility that they are going to die, permanently given how terrible things are and how weak the fog seems to be currently, and if that were to happen...

There's...no time.]

...Clotted Cream?

[clottedcream]

[Admittedly, the kiss to Sparkling's throat had simply been because, in turning his head just a little, that had been where his lips had landed. Clotted Cream had meant nothing by it, nothing more than a kiss to the back of the hand or to the temple. Soft, reassuring affection.

It isn't until Sparkling says his name that he realizes it may be taken in another way. Abruptly, his cheeks flare with warmth and he pulls back enough to look Sparkling in the eye, clearing his throat.]

Yes?

[He's fine. Everything is fine.]

[charmpagne]

[Well. He'll wait until Clotted Cream is looking up at him, if nothing else. Instead of...asking, he decides he's going to- for once- let his heart tell him what to do. Or, at the very least, the feeling he's getting from this situation. The "vibes" will guide his actions, as it were.

And these vibes are telling him to not let this opportunity slip him by, even if he isn't sure what exactly that might entail. He just knows that he wants Clotted Cream to know, without a doubt, how much he's cared for and loved before the end.

Which is why he's leaning in to kiss him, but this is a kiss that is anything but chaste. It's firm, desperate, but it doesn't last long enough for Clotted Cream to reciprocate for more than a second, because he's being kissed elsewhere. The corner of his mouth, along his jaw...and finally his neck, just below the juncture of where his jaw meets his throat.]

[clottedcream]

[This is a desperation that Clotted Cream recognizes from the backrooms, for the couple of seconds that it lasts. In fact, it's such a strong and vivid memory that it knocks his breath away for a second, leaving him very little time to reciprocate at all before Sparkling is on the move. Little movements, but movements all the same.

And oh, that last one is edging on biting territory. His body remembers, too, as a brief shiver rolls through him, and he lets out a soft breath, lifting one hand to rest on the Vampire's shoulder.]

Sparkling...

[But it isn't a question, or a request to stop. Simply a reverent murmur of his boyfriend's name, with maybe the faintest hint of curiosity in the lilt. This is new territory, depending on what direction Sparkling chooses to take.

They shouldn't be doing something reckless, not here where they might be found. But, at the same time, the world is ending all around them. If they're going to end up dying of starvation or worse anyway...]

[charmpagne]

[It isn't ideal. If Sparkling could have his way, he'd be in the privacy of his home, with Clotted Cream nestled with him in his bedroom, enjoying an evening together...but that isn't what they have right now. The Grapevine is gone, their friends and family scattered, and hope dwindling by the day. Food is becoming scarce, and they now look at a very grim reality, that if the human population dies out...they, too, will die with it.

Or, perhaps they won't even be that lucky. He thinks an eternal hell of reviving only to devour each other is a fate far worse than death.

That's why he refuses to entertain those thoughts right now. Right now his attention is reserved only for Clotted Cream, who he's currently cradling in a way that can only be described as reverent. His lips gently march their way down the side of his neck, hovering over his pulse because he 100% is having to hold himself back from biting. It's hard, and his stomach aches at the way he refuses himself, but he manages to power through it.

Gently, Sparkling tugs the Mer a bit closer to him, mostly so he can more easily reach him where he wants. Namely, his two fingers searching until they manage to find Clotted Cream's hip, carefully curving around the edge of it. And when Sparkling speaks again, it's rough and hot against Clotted Cream's neck as he presses open-mouthed kisses there.]

Please...stop me if this is too much, okay?

[clottedcream]

[Honestly, if Sparkling was to bite him right now? Clotted Cream wouldn't mind at all. It would help him out with his daily need to feed, if only partially. But that isn't what either of them are out here to do, so he won't ask. It isn't quite as desperate a situation as those endless rooms.

Yet.

For right now, all that matters is that Sparkling wants to, ah. Do more than they've done before, which is a simultaneously terrifying and thrilling possibility. Terrifying, because there's also the risk of being caught in a compromising position by other monsters or possibly even scavenging humans. Thrilling, because it seems like so little was needed to set this off, and he finds himself wondering what would have happened if he'd gone in with intent.

The open-mouthed kisses make him shudder out a breath, eyes closing and something hot lancing through his stomach at even that barest touch to his still-clothed hip. Good lord, he's touch-starved.]

...th-this is fine.

[It's more than fine, actually. But he has to show a little restraint. He brings his hand up, resting his fingers in the back of Sparkling's hair, twining the bubbling strands around his claws.]

[charmpagne]

[Clotted Cream may feel the need to show restraint, but Sparkling...does not. If anything, his claws in his hair only spur him on more. He can feel the way the other tenses against him, shuddering at just the most barely-there touch, and really that ends up telling him everything he needs to know.

He wishes he could do even more. He wants to. But with the way they're limited as they are now, he has to be a bit more selective...but. He thinks he knows of a way to show Clotted Cream a good time before the end.

He just has to try not to think about it that way.

His kisses continue to dip lower, from his neck down to his collarbone, as low as he dares without opening up his shirt too much. They aren't going to be disrobing back here, not when anyone could come barging into the store unannounced, so instead Sparkling has to rely on what he can do largely through clothing, and fortunately that's nothing to sneeze at. As he lays kisses to his exposed skin and scales combined, he moves his claws up from his hip to rest against his chest, wingtip dragging until he finds the swell of his chest, brushing the pads of his two fingers over where he can feel a nipple through the thin clothing.

He found them strange, initially. Some things cookies...do not have, obviously, but it doesn't exactly take you long of experimenting to discover just how sensitive they can be. That's what he's going for now as he gently kisses his way back up to Clotted Cream's lips, mostly so he can look at him while he's touching him.]

You're beautiful, you know.

[clottedcream]

[Dipping lower has Sparkling's lips occasionally brushing against the jellyfish mantle at Clotted Cream's collarbones, which is an interesting textural difference for Sparkling, and an interesting contrast in sensation versus none for Clotted Cream. He's quick to tip his head, giving the Vampire as much access as he can, eyes drifting closed as he drinks in the affection and the touch.

Touch that takes him briefly by surprise, as those claws rake over a part of his humanized body that he'd largely ignored. The Mer pulls in a soft gasp, fingers tensing in Sparkling's hair. He hadn't expected them to be sensitive like this. What's the purpose, he wonders?]

I could... say the same about you.

[It's breathed out between kisses, as his free hand slips around Sparkling's back to trace his fingertips along the edges of his wing, finding where it meets his back.]

[charmpagne]

[It's such a strange yet unique sensation against his lips that Sparkling can't help but want more of it. Of course, there's an ever-present threat of being stung if he isn't careful, depending on what parts of the jellyfish he chooses to get close to...but right now he isn't worrying about that. It's all about the thrill as it is, after all; a little numbing between friends hurt nobody.

Besides, he has much more important things to be thinking about as his touch elicits a soft gasp from Clotted Cream, just as he was hoping. Bingo. And since he's already getting handsy...he decides to use his claws to pop open just the first button of his sweater, not enough to be off, but...just enough that he can be touching bare skin. If he wasn't feeling how sensitive it was before...

He opens his mouth to reply cheekily, only to find that his words get garbled in the back of his throat because, oh, Clotted Cream touching the edge of his wing like that...it's sensitive too, just as much if not moreso due to how thin the membranes connecting to his body are. He can't help the way he moans softly when it happens, his wing shivering underneath the Mer's touch.]

...well, I certainly am not going to stop you.

[clottedcream]

[Luckily, Sparkling is in no danger of getting stung by the mantle. In this form, the only risks are the tentacles at his hips, so staying above the belt in that respect is as safe as can be. Well, aside from Clotted Cream's claws, but those are retractable.

With one button undone and more of his chest exposed, the closer touch makes the Mer muffle a short noise against his lower lip. Goodness, what a sensitive area. But it isn't just that - hearing Sparkling moan, however softly, in combination with the touch throws him for a loop. His head feels suddenly light, the breath gone from his chest. That noise...]

... if your face was the last thing that I saw, I would crumble happily knowing that I couldn't have seen anything more lovely.

[And he will punctuate his point with a kiss, passionate and desperate and breathless. His fingers don't leave Sparkling's wing, in fact going so far as to repeat his previous movement to swallow more of that sound.]

[charmpagne]

[In that case, Sparkling will not hold back. Not that it likely could have stopped him all that much, but it's less pushing past the discomfort and more not wanting to make Clotted Cream uncomfortable in any way. But, judging by the sounds he's making, it sounds like Sparkling has got the right idea for how to proceed here. He only wishes that he had more of his hands available...he wants to feel every expanse of the other's body underneath his fingertips, which is difficult to do with 1) wings for arms and 2) only one arm actually usable.

But for the time being, at least for their purposes, this is suitable. He could wish for more all he likes, but...he'll simply take what he can get for now.

If he had more time to react, he's fairly certain those words would have made him swoon similarly to the way he had when Clotted Cream asked him out for the first time. It's easy to assume that he's completely unshakeable, having been told everything during his lovelife, but somehow Clotted Cream manages to sweep him off his feet consistently time and again. It means that instead of answering that verbally, he gives the Mer what he's seeking instead: another deep-chested, shaky moan that gets caught up between them as they kiss, with Sparkling starting to move a bit less slowly now that he can feel the already tight fabric of his pants growing that much more uncomfortable. Especially if Clotted Cream is going to keep brushing his fingertips over his wing like that.]

A-ah...CC... [He manages just barely between kisses, though it's kindof his fault this time that he's cut off, seeing as how he goes in for another kiss since he's unable to help but want more.] Please...let me touch you. Please.

[He's been touching him, but he means like...touch.]

[clottedcream]

[If asked, Clotted Cream would say that Sparkling is doing a wonderful job. For all that the air around them is chilled, he feels abruptly warm, and the tightness coiling in his stomach with each of Sparkling's moans only serves to make his pants feel, well. Tighter, but not uncomfortably so. Not yet, at any rate. Lucky for Clotted Cream, he's already had some minor experience with the sensation since his arrival here, so it doesn't take him nearly as by surprise as it did that very first time many months before.

But oh, Light, that moan. Clotted Cream greedily swallow it into his own mouth, hand moving away from the Vampire's wing to instead rest on his hip. The tightness in those pants is evident by the pull in the fabric, and. Well. This isn't the ideal place for this, but he's already made his peace with that fact.]

Please.

[It's a soft murmur against Sparkling's lips as he devours any further response in a kiss for the moment.]

But I would also like to touch you.

[charmpagne]

[Damn. Clotted Cream...he's not sure if insatiable is too strong of a word here, but there's definitely something going on between them right now. Maybe desperation is closer, but whatever it is, Sparkling is feeling it in spades. It's making his chest pleasantly tight every time Clotted Cream refuses to even let him think to speak with how voraciously he's being kissed, which is why- before doing anything else- he decides to just pause for a moment and kiss him.

Like. Really kiss him. Not so much that he'll be left struggling to breathe, but he will at the very least be breathless by the end of it. It's easier for Sparkling, since he doesn't have to breathe...but that doesn't mean he isn't still vaugely panting against Clotted Cream's lips all the same, his claws reaching up briefly to brush a lock of hair out of the other's eyes.]

By all means, love.

[Then, with the edge of his wing, he carefully tucks Clotted Cream closer to him, like he might if they were instead two bats cuddling together. It means that their legs will end up tangling just slightly, yet it does afford them a touch more privacy in the event someone did suddenly come into the store. Because now...now that he has permission, Sparkling is going to start exploring a bit lower. Slowly, mostly to amp up to it for Clotted Cream's sake, the side of his two fingers skimming over his clothing down his side, gently rubbing at those gills for a moment before he passes over his hip.

Though Sparkling could just immediately go for it, he decides to take things just a touch slower. Meaning, he brings the tip of his wing down and ever-so-slightly edges it along the outside of Clotted Cream's pants, sort of halfway palming his crotch through his clothing. It's not quite as direct as he'd like, but he'll get there.]